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well another fucking nite of no sleep, i swear im gonna die by the end of the week due to lack of sleep, oh well, going out again today not sure where yet but somewhere, i cant just sit in the house its not good for me, i shall tty all later
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[14 Jul 2004|01:26am] |
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ok everyone it is 1:30 in the morning and i cant sleep, i cant stop crying, i cant stop thinking about wat i did, im bawling so much right now, w/e i say it doesnt seem to matter because u wont believe me anyway, so im taking a week off from the world because everyones calling me an asshole and everyones calling me a dick so i cant sleep at all right now, lisa i called u about 5 times in tears im sry i kept waking u up, paul i called u once in tears sry i woke u up ok im done now hopefully i can get sleep tonite i guess i will tty all tommorow, well at least 8 of u on my 194 people buddy list, good nite all hope u all live well and sleep well
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[13 Jul 2004|11:45am] |
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i will be away for a few days, yes i know selfish of me but w/e, if u need to talk umm idk how to get in contact with me but im sure someone will find a way and i have caller id so i can tell whose calling, i have an sn im always gonnd be on but only 8 out of 194 people know it and its only the people i can stand to talk to right now without flipping out on myself, so i will be back around end of the week bye all
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i fell asleep around 12:35 drunk trying to run away from my problems and of course it didnt work to well, i woke up at 1 and i've been phasing in and out/on and off about reality and life, i havent been able to sleep at all tonite because i've been thinking of this whole situation, i dont deserve u at all and i dont deserve anyone right now, all the fucking respect i had for myself is all gone now i feel so shitty as i have a right to but at the same time jake does have a point im not the victim, so yea idk wats gonna happen in the next few days idk wat im gonna do, but overall i just need to quit thinking about these suicidal tendencies in my head because they are really fucking me over right now...its about 7 in the morning and im guessing since i didnt sleep, thats y im still feeling a tad bit drunk, idk anymore, im gonna go, bye
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[13 Jul 2004|12:00am] |
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look, i did something wrong, and this will make me want to kill myself w/e happens, and i cant hold this in anymore, everyone can call me an asshole, u can call me an asshole, anyone who wants can, if im not alive in a few days its because im dead because of this whole situation, i was drunk and yes i did something stupid, and fuck theres no way u will forgive me and theres no way im gonna forgive myself so im just lie in bed for days thinking about it and idk if i will be able to talk to people, idk if it will be possible, but yea i will be in bed i will prob. not have the balls to talk to anyone so hopefully i will be able to stay alive for a few days, im just gonna sleep and hopefully not wake up, tty all later
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[02 Jul 2004|07:14am] |
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[02 Jul 2004|07:11am] |
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ok so its 7:10 in the morning and i didnt sleep one minute last nite, all i did was sit up in bed thinking if ur alright and sleeping well, i miss u soo much and i cant stop thinking about u, thats all i do now-a-days is think of u and i cant stop, its like a sickness but the best sickness in the world because its a feeling of love for u and its not going away ever, im gonna go work on my application more tty all later
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[27 Jun 2004|08:09am] |
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yea so now its morning and i just walked emily home and then walked home myself, i didnt sleep even 1 minute and im quite alright with that, but of course i get to come home and curse off my fucking mom because of my report card that doesnt make sense such as "thats fucking bull shit" and "your no fucking help" shit like that, im so fucking sick of this bull crap and i just want it all to fucking end, i want to move away and never come back because i am so sick of this shit and i wish it would all just stop i dont even give a flying fuck anymore, fuck this shit, im so fucking pissed
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[27 Jun 2004|05:41am] |
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ok so i havent slept in a while, i didnt sleep at all tonite, i walked lisa home with CJ and pretty much walked all the way back and we got back around 5 wen we left at around 3:30, im really tired, and i cant fall asleep I HATE BEING AN INSOMNIAC (sometimes...hehe), idk its been a long nite, i shall be back later
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[27 Jun 2004|02:48am] |
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ok so its about 3 in the morning and i tried sleeping on the floor but i cant really sleep, it seems that i shall always be that one who sleeps on the floor, falls asleep alone, and goes home alone...idk...whoever reads this dont take it the wrong way i guess?...yeaaaaa im not sure...im just sitting here listening to last picked, im gonna walk home in a few hours and sleep the day away
On a better note, this morning i gave in an application to Drug Fair. Around 5 P.M. my dad called me, and i was a bit buzzed and hes like "tim from drug fair called u" so i asked for the number and called mr. tim back he says "u have an interview on monday" which completely rox because it pretty much means im gonna get the job which is way awesome...because i need a job/steady cash flow aside from only doing my fucking lawn...haha...im gonna go i shall tty all later today
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[26 Jun 2004|11:45am] |
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if u guys plan on going to see catch 22, be prepared. Ken, for all of u who don't know catch 22 too well is the trumpet player, he has gotten a lot fatter and is all ghettoed out now, and during the concert kept yelling JAY-Z and im yelling back to him fuck u, so yea just be prepared fellow catch lovers
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[26 Jun 2004|02:18am] |
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ok so today rocked, i woke up around 10:45 and played Wind Waker half the day, then dutch picked me up, i gave money to munoz, then got cigs, then went to see the best concert ever...in order here we go...Big D & The Kids Table- rocked my sox only knew a few songs...Lucky Boys Confusion- sucked my balls, horrible, no stage presence...RxBandits- best ever, 1st time seeing them, i wish i knew more of their crap but they rocked anyway (AND I MET MATT (THE LEAD SINGER WOOOO...lol))...Catch 22- fucking amazing aside from their new crap, i got kicked right next to the balls, i kicked people, i jumped on people, i got hit in the head at least 10 times, it rocked so much, sung along to 90% of their songs, fun times OH YEA...Reel Big Fish- amazing, way to long (hour and a half set) but still rocked, i knew most of their crap and yelled for a lot of it, they were funny, first time seeing them, it was all good, then i went to munozs and had a beer which finished off the amazing nite because thats all i could think of during RBF because it was so damn hot
So overall tonite rocked my world, the only thing that sucked about it was that i was not with karen :( ...me love her soooo much...hehe...i shall see her today tho (btw its 2:30 in the morning...haha) i shall see u all later, karen i love you a lotttttttttttttttt, bye bye
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[19 Jun 2004|12:36pm] |
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Once, a woman was walking when she came upon a snake frozen in the snow. She took it home, cared for it, and nursed it back to health. One day the snake bit her with its poisonus venom. As she laid dying, she asked the snake why? It replied "look bitch, you knew I was a snake"
so yea last nite i went to lloyds show which was fucking amazing, one of the best ska shows i've been to in a looooooooooong time...i then slept at lloyds, i got home about an hour ago this morning, fun nites, prob. going to munozs then vitaliy's for a party, tty all later
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[16 Jun 2004|11:14pm] |
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this day has rocked, its made me so happy and i realized so many things even tho some of um i already knew...hehe...today i realized im a senior now, these past 3 years of high school have flown by and then im gonna be going to college, its a scary feeling at the same time tho...im scared of leaving and being away from all of this, the security, the friends, the love, all of it wont be available everyday, but im sure i will succeed (i hope) and im sure i will get by and all that stuff...i realized how much i have grown up its an amazing feeling, i cant say im completely mature because im not, but i m a bit more mature, the feeling of growing up is interesting...its fun tho, i learn more and gain more life expierience which rox...today i also realized how much i can possibly love a person, there is no limit for it, i love u so much and it is not changing, every time im with u it makes me more and more happy, u make me feel like the world and i love u for that and many more reasons, its amazing how much u can love a person, its not even possible to explain, but overall its a good feeling, im gonna go not sleep for another nite in a row, tty all later
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[16 Jun 2004|11:27am] |
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[15 Jun 2004|06:05pm] |
| How to make a death6 |
Ingredients:
1 part jealousy
5 parts silliness
1 part beauty |
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of emotion and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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[13 Jun 2004|05:32am] |
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ok so its 5:40 in the morning as of now and i havent slept at all tonite, we have been out all nite and me= no sleep, i love this feeling wen u cant remember if u slept or if u dont know if ur dreaming or if ur awake, its a great ass feeling, so yea my friend jill cheered me up tonite because i missed hanging out with her since i havent seen her in a looooooooong time
on a more productive/philosophical/something note...im sry all of this happened and im sry i did all this crap i truly am and i hope u know that and yes it will take a while to forgive me or something and i understand that...im hoping we can just forgive and forget something like that because i love you a lot and i dont want this to change a thing, i just want our relationship to continue how it was going and i'd be the happiest dude in the world if it turned out like that, i love you
have a good day all i will be sleeping half of it because i didnt sleep all nite, literally no exagerration
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